A heart of love is always striving to sacrifice and yield. It is a heart that tries to give and give again. For example, suppose I had 100 million dollars. Even if I went out onto the street to give all that money away, I would not be satisfied with that. On the contrary, I would feel sorry that I did not have enough money to be able to help all people of the world. Likewise, the heart of love is endless. Thus, we can never measure God's heart. How huge God's heart is! How deep His heart is! Therefore, people cannot be proud of themselves. No matter how great your accomplishments, if you ask your mind, it will answer, "You have to do more." People in the secular world want to be recognized. They want to receive praise. However, the mind is not like that. People hope to be recognized. At the point where they are recognized, everything ends. When they try to go up to the next stage, they will be confronted with many obstacles. Why are there many obstacles? Because the path the mind is seeking is the path of the cross. If you are often receiving praise, you will come to like your position. Because you enjoy being respected, you will have no desire to bear a cross. However, if you are reaching up to the second stage, you must bear the cross. It is a difficult path to bear because your body does not want to go that way.

Up until the age of thirty, therefore, I always felt hungry. I felt hungry every day. Though I sympathized with hungry people, however, I had to praise that time of hunger. That was a serious time. It was not because of a lack of rice. I went such a difficult way intentionally.

People who have not fulfilled their responsibility yet cannot take a spoon and eat as they wish. I did not sleep freely before I completed everything which had to be prepared. In such a miserable situation I could not find room to enjoy time comfortably, because my mind pushed me to do more. People like myself cannot take a daytime nap. No matter how tired I feel, I cannot take a nap. True Mother told me to sleep more because of my exhaustion, but I could only sleep one or two hours last night. My mind does not permit me to sleep well. You could say that I am old now and the time has come to take a rest, but I cannot rest. Even though I am growing old, I have to do more than young people do. Because the problems become bigger and bigger, I have to do more and more.

I cannot hand my work over to anybody else. I will give instructions about everything. I do not give instructions for the sake of it; there is always a spiritual basis to my instructions. Do you understand? As I proceed with my work, my heart likewise teaches me, through myself, the way to go. My heart already knows it. I might just glance at somebody, but I already know what kind of person he is. The closest teacher is therefore the heart. So do not let your heart be disturbed.

Do not become troubled. If you trouble your heart, it will make God and me sad. Your heart is the lord in your life. Thus, to make the heart sorrowful is similar to making the lord of your life sorrowful. You should go the way which can make your heart joyful.

When I attended middle school, I cleaned the entire area of the school by myself. Because I wanted to love my school more than any other student, I cleaned the school with the mind to clean on behalf of all the students. In this situation, I didn't want to get other people's help. I wanted to do it alone. I wanted to do it properly. I therefore sometimes happened to clean somewhere that had already been done. Because I continued to clean all areas, my friends handed over everything to me. My friends said, "We'd like to do it this way, but because you always do it that way, why don't you do it yourself?" Therefore, in the end, I naturally came to the point of doing it all.

Cleaning time is a good time to enjoy the company of one's mind. To secular people it seems a solitary situation, but it is time to become friends with your mind. After you have done that, sit down and try to meditate; enter the realm of deep prayer and of great depth that others do not know.

When you go to a theater, you may say that the theater is good when it is the theater building that looks good. No matter how good the building is, however, if the play is not interesting you cannot say that the theater is good. The important thing is how much everyone becomes one centering on the play. The depth of a person's character depends on that. The question is to what extent you are leading a life that resembles the heart and is expanding its scope. (133-180)