You may not know how difficult the providential history of salvation is. You don't know how difficult it is. Neither your friends, nor your wife or parents can help. Nobody can help. It is the position of parents, of Adam. Do you understand? At that time, nobody was there. No teacher. Nobody? There were only angels of the spiritual realm. Even though I was supposed to be saved by angels according to the Principle, because the angels belong to the fallen realm they were not permitted to help me. The angels were trying to take advantage of me as they wished. Nobody could be trusted. Even God could not treat me normally. God could not relate with me before I passed certain tests.

Because human beings turned their backs on God, in order for God to believe in humankind, He must also do the same to humankind. God could not assume that he would find a trustworthy son in this faithless, fallen world, because humanity had abandoned the environment of the Garden of Eden in which they could believe freely. Don't you think so? (Yes!) In order to reach the position where God can trust you, you have to pass through all kinds of tests. I had gone through a series of tests in order reach this position. Because I do not talk about these tests, nobody knows their content. I will not speak about those miserable tests because I do not want them to be recorded.

Such stories should not exist in the Garden of Eden. In the original world, there would not have been such stories. Only I know them, and I digest them by myself. My heart wants to pass on only the good things to the next generations. I want to bury the various bad things within myself, and then leave only the good things behind for you. If possible, therefore, I try not to speak about such things as my time in prison. There would be many people who would weep loudly were I to speak about the suffering life of prison. If I spoke about my suffering in prison, people may be shocked emotionally, of course, and may make a new resolution, but that is not what I want. People must make such new determinations according to reasonable principles.

You have to make a determination based on truth rather than on hearing about a shocking situation. You should not decide according to someone else's strong demand, but by your own desire to do so. If you encounter the truth, your mind will be naturally moved. Therefore, your closest teacher is your mind-and it is more precious than your most intimate friend, your mother, or your father. You need to ask your mind. God is dwelling within your mind. You should be able to listen to the sound of your mind. You need to reach that point.

Buddhism says that one should reach self-enlightenment. Buddha said, "There is only one person on earth and in heaven." That means that if you ask yourself, you can know that God exists within you. Then there is nothing you cannot accomplish. Thus, you should enlighten your mind. Your mind is better than a teacher. Your mind is your eternal lord. Therefore, you should not have a selfish mind, but one that always stands in a public position.(133-178)