1. FATHER'S LIFE IN TERMS OF CLOTHES, FOOD, AND LIVING CIRCUMSTANCES.

When I was young I came to Seoul to enter middle school. (153-33)

\I left my hometown at the age of 18, and I risked my life in order to restore the Satanic world, forgetting about my hometown. (147-253)

In my student days I did my own cooking for seven years. In those days Seoul was very cold. Although it has good weather these days, in those days the temperatures reached minus 20 degrees Centigrade, and on the average it was minus 15 degrees Centigrade. It was that cold in Seoul. When we got water from the well, often the string broke because of the weight of the iron bucket with water in it.

We also had to live in a very cold room. In my days as a middle and high school student I slept in a very cold room. It was colder then than it is now.

I put my sleeping bag in a cold room and slept, and when I woke up in the morning there was a mark on the floor that did not disappear even after one week. So you may think I was miserable as a young man having to live without heat. When it was very cold I used electric heating. I often got burnt here and there. I'll never forget that. I never said that to my mother. But I had burns on various parts of my body. I also economized my living expenses and saved money so that I could pay for my friend's school expenses. So in order to make money, I sometimes worked by pulling a wagon or a cart with baggage. (137-283, 51-262)

In my middle school days I did not eat lunch, not because I had no money but because I wanted to know how the hungry felt. Also, I did not eat lunch because there was no food. I did that because I felt I had to train myself during the normal days of my life.

In those days it was a great pleasure to do that, even greater than eating something. Young people naturally want to eat as much as they can. Still on my own volition I did not eat lunch. At lunch time it was very difficult to control my desire for food. While my friends ate their lunches, I sat in a remote corner not eating, just meditating. It was a serious time. (50-308)

I am very stingy toward myself. Until I turned 30, I never bought a new suit. I would always buy a secondhand suit in a secondhand store and wear it. In my student days all my clothes were student uniforms. I patched them when necessary and continued to wear them. I often went to a secondhand shop in Seoul and purposely chose the uniforms which other students would not dare to choose because they were too old, stained with oil, or too smelly. Also, I did not get my hair cut, nor did I shave.

Why? Because in that way I was able to do whatever I wanted wherever I went. I made all my own undershirts and underpants. I did that because I wanted to train myself so that I could do the will of God even if I had to live alone. So, by living in that way and saving money I helped many poor and miserable people. Sometimes when the families of patriots in the resistance movement had difficulties because the husband was in prison, or etc., I went to help the family members without giving my name. I lived such a life. (51-262,31-260,137-235)