Isn't it the case that sometimes even I, Teacher Moon of the Unification Church, feel ashamed to face the members? Just recently this was the case. I spoke for thirteen hours on Sunday from morning till noon and evening time, and then I went to Chung Pyung. Despite that it was raining heavily, members were still digging the ground. Because they had to complete their responsibility by a certain deadline, they had to get on with the work. When I arrived there I was so tired, but because I could not rest lying down on the blankets, I stretched my legs out, and leaning against the stack of blankets in the tent I took a deep rest. Then, I woke up to the sound of my own snoring. When I looked out after waking up, I saw members were still digging the ground with hoes and pushing the carts around. When I saw that, I shed tears. "What would happen if God came to visit here? What would I do if God, with whom I have been having ultimate communications throughout the course of my life, came for a visit?" Because I have this type of mentality, even if they themselves are tired, when they see me, they wish that I take some rest. They say, that many people are now receiving notices of conscription. There are many people who try to leave our movement during these times with the excuse that they have to go to some military training and so forth, but how many people are trying to come? Who will come when they have completed their obligations? If someone does not return, then he is not someone who is working with a sincere heart. Yesterday, one young man who was born in Ye-Soo received a telegram from his father, the first in two or three years; so when I heard him say as he read the telegraph while working, "Satan has appeared," I wondered, "So, if Satan appeared then what are you going to do and how are you going to get rid of him?" Then, since I could not send him empty handed on the first visit home, I gave him two thousand won and told him to make the trip. I wanted to see, "So, he said that Satan appeared; now let's see if he is going to disappear completely or not." However, he came back yesterday. So I thought, "Wow, this guy has set the right condition. He has lived up to the standard that I want and set the condition that we can be proud of before God when the construction of the building is complete. It was a good thing that he came back." Everyone else is trying to leave because it is difficult to be here, so the one who has come back again is the real member of the Unification Church. That kind of person, those who came back after paying a visit, have the inner content to be much more prosperous than those who went and did not come back or those who have continued to toil by staying behind the whole time. Why is this so? This is because not every one went through the test yet. Because you have not been in the position of having received a direction, and you have not had the experience of carrying it out in action, and because you have not yet faced the dilemma of having to make a decision this or that way, can you be trusted? We have to trust ones who left and then returned. So I think that when I go back today, I should buy something for that person. Should I not buy something for him? If I buy something just for that person, other people should not complain, "Why does he buy just for him?" (46-53)
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