Until now, there have been many members who fell away from their life of faith. There was such a huge variety of people that one can even say that the ten thousand types of people have at some point in time gathered before me. There are many people whose memory cannot be erased from my mind. At times, when I reflect on the times between the days in Pyung Yang and now, I find that the type of people that I once dealt with in the past can be found here today, too. Countless types of people have passed by. Among the people who used to follow me and then fell away were many whose determinations were many tens of times stronger than yours.

So, when you tell me today, "I will follow you until I die," how many percent should I believe your words? [You should believe us one hundred percent] This is what is so painful. If I have trusted you one hundred percent, then when you turn away, I have to bear the cross one hundred percent. Because it means that I was able to introduce God only to that limited extent, so that I, who made the introduction, will be embarrassed. Isn't this also how it is in the world? Accordingly, I face a great dilemma of how much I should believe.

Among those who used to follow me in the past there were these types of people. There was a person who pledged that even to the top of the Baek-Doo Mountain he would attend me, and there he would till the stone ground to make a field out of it, and planting potatoes there, he would serve me for even a thousand years never forgetting the resentment of heaven, and even if the whole world were to change he would remain unchanged. Do you understand what this means? There was a person who pledged that he would make a field out of the stone ground to plant potatoes there, and even if he has to live there for a thousand years bearing the resentful heart of heaven, he would live for the sake of the will of heaven and serve me. However, when the winds blew he did not even last two years, and abandoning me he ran away in an attempt to save his own skin.

All of you have heard about the story of Peter, right? He made the pledge, "Even if everyone abandons you, I will not leave you," but before the cock crowed it was Peter who betrayed three times. (26-140)