When you hear the truth for the first time after joining the Unification Church, you will shed an ocean of tears. At the extreme, you will even forget about eating your meals. You will dread going back home, which will feel as if you are dying, but on the other hand, you will be overjoyed to come to the church. Have you felt these feelings? You will reap what you have sown. If you sow beans, you will reap beans, and if you sow red beans then you will reap red beans. (35-67)